A Month to Remember: Days 15 and 16
The Truth
I can’t write.
I keep trying to put together what I have been thinking, but my mind is in total chaos. I refuse to use AI for anything other than research. I know that it’s a good resource when you get stuck, but it doesn’t feel authentic. I even have the same battle with Grammarly when it tries to change my words and strip the uniqueness I am trying to cultivate out of my voice. I understand that my thoughts sometimes have to be edited in order to not go over the boundaries that are set, but all the things I want to write here and release — I can’t. At least, I can’t right now because I can’t find the right words to put these thoughts in order. I can’t use the humor and sarcasm that I usually try to use in order to convert my words into something that is pliable and easy to consume to others without it being — black. However, it’s too hard right now. Mentally — I can’t.
So until I can get back to myself over the next few days — if I can make — I will just try to keep something going. Maybe for awhile I can share some videos that I’ve been watching during this time… Although, be warned … they go up and down…
Until then…
~Kurai
